I'm going to make this short,
because I'm extremely exhausted,
and most of the details are private anyways.

But this morning,
my parents made it very clear that they hate each other,
and with a divorce on the way,
lots of things are messy right now.
Including the fact that I want to move out.
And my dad is doing some very immoral things now-a-days.

Then,
Ash gets busted because of a probation drug test.
She tells her dad I'm the one she's been smoking with,
and BOOM.
Ash and I are no longer allowed to hang out with each other.


I lost my best friend.


Then,
Pops freaks out because he doesn't like the fact
that I go over to his house [he's scotts dad]
and drink underage.
Which by the way has never been an issue before.
Scott punched his windshield in and cracked that shit :[
And Heath and Scott aren't supposed to hang out with
each other anymore either.

So that's 2 for 2.


Fuck today dude.
Everything went wrong pretty much.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

I mean, I've still got my boy,
and that's all that matters.

Heath is the love of my life,
I can't let something stupid like our ages
ruin the amazing bond we have.

Goodnight ya'll.

I definitely need it after a BAD day.

Yesterday night was the first night I had to put up with the crazy holiday shoppers that come into Beall's around this time of year.

I'm not talking a normal kind of crazy.
I'm talking, she was such a crazy bitch,
She almost made Dee have to "break out her ghetto!"

I am still kind of new to all the procedures I have to follow while working the register.
This lady first of all starts BITCHING hardcore at me
because she came into the store for a backpack,
and we didn't have them on sale anymore.
[Yeah right lady, like that's really my fault.]

Then,
she buys about 40 bucks worth of clothes and stuff,
and AFTER I already hit total,
and was uncapable of taking off any more discounts,
the fucking bitch hands me a 20% off card.

I was like,
"Ma'am you DO realize I have to go through and re-scan everything,
just to take this off because you waited to give it to me until after I already rang you up [stupid fucking whore]."

She rolled her eyes,
but I guess she really wanted her 7 dollars off, so I took everything
out of the bag and went through the process again.

Now, Beall's has some pretty old cash registers.
And for some reason, it only calculated the discount code as 10 percent.
I most definitely hit 20.
So it only took off 2 dollars.


This woman had a bitch fit!

She started cussing at me, saying that she was supposed to be home
at 8 sharp and I was making her late.


LOOK YOU FUCKING BITCH.
YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO FUCKING COME INTO THIS STORE
THIRTY MINUTES BEFORE YOU HAD TO BE HOME.



that was just stupid on her part.

Then, I called Dee over to see what was wrong with the register.
And Dee had to re-scan everything again.

Then the machine charged the woman's card TWICE and well,

you can imagine how that went.

There was other people in line with one item,
and this crazy woman had like 30.
So Dee said "Let me help these people and get back to you."

How DARE Dee think of any other customers before this woman.
She blew up at Dee.
A grown woman yelling at another grown woman.
This bitch didn't even know Dee and she was saying things to her
I'd never say to ANYONE I knew personally,
Let alone a total stranger.


I guess my point is,
This Christmas shopping season is going to be hell.
That woman ruined my night last night.

When she left she said she was never going to come to that store again.




Hey you cunt.
Is that a promise?

Last night.
Mmmm, wow.

So I worked with Courtney and Brittany last night.
It was awesome because we're all the same age,
and we were running the entire store ourselves :]

But that wasn't the crazy part of the night.


Heath picked me up when I got off work and we picked up some beer.
We each popped one Adavan and I'm telling you what,
when it says don't drink with this medication,

THEY MEAN IT!!


I got fuckkkkked up.
Dana had a party at her house because she moving out.
And It was Heath, Me, Ash, Britney Parker, Matthew "Handgun",
and a shit ton more of people I didn't really know because I was too gone.

I tried to do a spinkick in the backyard,
and FELL ON MY BACK!

Yeah, Heath thought it was cute haha.

Then, I drank a lot more,
and started taking some shots.

We wanted to smoke some,
we Lisa Twostep and Heath and I went on a ride.
But we had to stop in Mayfair [the ghetto] to do some "transactions".


As soon as Heath got out of the car,
I looked at Lisa,
I looked at the door.
I looked at Lisa,
I looked at the door.

I opened the door and the alarm started going off,
but I was too busy throwing up to realize that we were IN THE GHETTO
and drawing a shit ton of attention to ourselves.

It's okay though.
I thought it would be anywas.

But I started to pass out.
Heath had to drop me off before I could enjoy myself any longer.
I was toast.



<3

Whatever though.
It was still a fun night.
I haven't been drunk as shit in forever.
And I was seeing kids that I hadn't seen in years.


THUMBS UP FOR THAT.



I'm off today,
and waiting for Scott to get off work
so that we can kill some time at the Greek Festival
until HEATH gets off work at 7.

Then who knows.
I better get fucked up tonight.
But it's shitty that I have to work in the morning at 9.



Gah.


<3 Well I'm off.

later yall

I started my first day at work today.
Ah yes. Venturing into the world of retail.

These past few weeks have been like a dream to me.
I've been so relaxed, the days just float by, ya know?
Like, I know they are happening and everything,
but everything is so different from what it used to be just a year ago.
I mean, fuck.
I actually have a JOB.
In Ohio, man fuck jobs!

I thought that when I got hired,
my first day was going to be excrutiating.
But the day happened upon me so fast,
I didn't even have time to be scared.



And I ended up actually liking it.
It wasn't hard at all.

In fact,
it's as easy as two high school cheerleaders...
you know..the ones who do the stunts.


There was this one crazy bitch that came in though.
It was way past closing time,
and I had called on the intercom NUMEROUS times that the store was indeed closing.


And still she continued to shop.
and shop.



and fucking shop.


PUHLEAZE HOE!
Get tah steppin'.


My supervisor Dee and I wanted to kick this woman out so bad.
But of course we couldn't.
That would be against company policy.

So we waited.
And waited.



and fucking waited.

When she finally came to the register
she was still ramblin' on about some bullshit.
Asking if her shoes looked like they were the same size,
and if a pair of little boys pajamas would fit her.

Then she couldn't find her checkbook.


Wow.
To top it all off,
when I got off work my mom said I had to be home at 10:30.
[hey, i tried to haggle, but the broad wouldn't budge.]

Heath and Scott picked me up,
but what the fuck good does that do when you have to be home in 30 minutes.
I swear, our parents' generation was spawned here by aliens.
There's no fucking way my mother could have EVER been young before.
She's obviously new to the whole, teenage daughter actually wanting to have a life thing.

Anyways,
we smoked some good herbage and went to the park.
Smoked a cancer and headed to my house.

And well here I am.
I picked out the perfect clothes for tomorrow.
And I'm off to dreamland.



Float on.

I was allowed to stay out all night last night
because my mom and my aunt were having a massive halloween party.

my aunt ended up so trashed,
my mom had to put her to bed!

she wasn't the only one trashed though.
i got pretty fucked up too at scott's.
i met heath and scott's friend christine.
she was a little off her rocker, but she was sweet.

everyone got fucked up last night.
even pops and rhonda [scott's dad and his girlfriend]
it was fabulous.

scott decided to pass out at like 1 am
but i didn't have to be home til daylight.
so heath and i went back to his house
and heh heh.. well you know:]
<3


all in all
it was a successful saturday/sunday.
and i think i might be hanging out with ash today too <3



life is good.

today broke the routine of heath picking me up.
us going to scotts.
us having adventures.


i went to school,
and actually had a good day:]
i drank a coke in first period,
and pondered the days events.
it was nice.

then after school,
sarah brantley came home with me
and we ate baked potatoes :}
[which i threw up later]

dana picked us up
and we were off.


we tussin tripped
and drove to mobile,
i puked THREE times on the way there,
and then tripped balls the whole way back
because we just drove there,
turned around at a gas station,
and came back to pensacola.
hahaha!?

heath picked me and sarah up when he got off work,
and we went to scotts to get a little weird:]
buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut,
on the way there,
we we're doing some illegal things in the car,
and a cop pulled up besides us and flashed his lights.




as soon as the sirens started,
i froze.



what the fuck.



luckily,
fate looks out for me in situations like this.
he pulled over another car beside us,
and we high tailed it to the nearest neighborhood to recouperate.


anyways,
i started to get a little jealous because heath
was flirting with sarah... or so i thought.
i don't really know for sure though,
i'm still kinda ehhhh haha you know.

i trust heath though.
laugh if you want to,
but i've got an intuition.
he made up for it with an amazing goodbye.


now i've showered,
and i'm sleeping heavy and happy tonight.


i love life.




p.s.


TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!
heath works 12-5 and then
we are going to get his transmission fixed
at scotts shop.


now my eyes are fuckin up and i've really got to go.


night.

Well,
I skipped out on class today to hang out with Heath
[it was his day off as well:]
and it was the best <3

Right when I woke up,
I got to see the sleepy grin that makes him so adorable in the mornings.
It was a done deal from there. The day was destined to be great.

There's a down side though.
Spending 14 hours with the person you love,
really makes you miss them when you have to sleep without them at night.

AND I have to wait until 7 in the evening to see him tomorrow.

Gah!
I think I can live though.


On another note,
my mom is putting me on her cell phone plan
since my dad took mine away.
She promises it will include free text messaging.


:]
Adios Amigos.

well.
first to put it out there,
i got my cell phone taken away tonight.

apparently,
i racked up $450 bucks worth of text messaging since the last bill was paid.


i mean,
what the fuck?
it doesn't seem like i even use it that much.
maybe if my parents didn't sign me up with a shitty plan,
we wouldn't be in this mess.


i woke up WAY too early this morning,
and difinitely on the wrong side of the bed.
somehow, i jammed my elbow up and it's been nagging at me all day.
and that's not the only thing that's been nagging.

my mom has been bitching.
my teachers have been bitching.
it's been hell all day.


but heath got off work at 4 luckily,
and he came to my rescue.
that boy always knows how to put a smile on my face.
but tomorrow is tuesday,
and tuesdays are usually good days for me.
heath is taking me to school AND picking me up.
[gotta love days off]

well i need to pass out before i dumb out completely.
peace.

Sunday is supposed to be a day of rest, right?
Well, today was definitely that.

As soon as I woke up,
Heath came and picked me up.
We went about doing the stupid things we often do,
and then we went to lunch with Heath's family.
It was really nice to be a part of something so awesome like that.
My family doesn't eat out together.

Then we hung out with Scott.
And that always is fun<3
I'm glad to have such a good big brother.
He's honestly become one of my best friends.

Today overall just opened my eyes to how amazing my seemingly boring life can be.

Love to all.

In just a half-an-hour my evening will begin.
And it's Friday, so I'm rather excited.
I've been wishing lately that I had more money to spend,
or that my parents had more money to give me =\
because I feel like I've been mooching off my friends a lot.
And that's not my intention at all, things are just really hard up now.
I DID, however, apply at Learning World and Beall's today.
Hopefully I get hired at one or the other.

But back to the weekend.
In 30 minutes, Heath is coming to kidnap me and that always makes for an amazing night. It seems that, even though we never do anything productive I always have the best nights <3 Maybe it's because I love him.

That's right.
I LOVE him.
I finally mustered up the courage to tell him how I feel and
as it turns out, he loves me too :]and that, my friends, is a HUGE sigh of relief.


I started my new classes today.
Not sure how I'm going to afford my book by Tuesday =\
My Sociology text ALONE is $94 and that's money that my parents just don't have.


Oh, and Sarah Brantley goes to PJC now :]
Which means I'll get to see her a lot more!

<3
Heath is texting me so toodles!